Happy Birthday, Sawyer

It's your first birthday today, Sawyer. How do you feel?

Growing up is hard to do.

Paranoid

In Language Arts Olivia is learning about paragraphs. I gave her a list of three words and told her to write a paragraph about one of them. The list of words was baby, game or bed. This is what Olivia wrote:

If that isn't bad enough, Olivia came up and started rubbing my belly at the trunk or treat. Does she know something I don't?

Tag...I'm it.

My friend Backy tagged me a few weeks ago. Oops! I guess I should check her blog more often.

3 JOYS
1. The great relationship I have with Jody
2. My children- they are all I ever dreamed of
3. Olivia rocking it in gymnastics

3 FEARS
1. Losing a loved one
2. Getting in a car accident
3. Heights


3 GOALS
1. Catch up on my scrapbooking
2. Work on my Masters
3. Grow a garden that actually produces food

3 CURRENT OBSESSIONS
1. Clipping coupons
2. Bargain shopping
3. Organizing this house

3 REGRETS
1. Leaving BYU. I have dreams all the time that I go back to finish my degree.
2. Not spending more time with my grandpa when I lived in Utah
3. Not protecting my sister when we were little

3 FACTS ABOUT ME
1. I was born in a truck. I'm a Ford girl!
2. I am 5 ft 3.5 inches. (And yes the .5 matters)
3. I am very pragmatic but horrible at making decisions.

I tag Sendai, Pa and crazy Sarah.

Random thoughts

I splurged and bought a pretty shower curtain. I usually buy the cheap $1 liners from the dollar store. The one we had up was getting gross so I took it down. I could have sworn I got two the last time I bought one. I couldn't find it though. I ended up taping up a plastic pink table cloth for a shower curtain to tide us over until I made it to the store. How hillbilly is that! I decided to buy a fabric shower curtain so I can wash it and reuse it. While the kids and I were trying to decided which one to buy, Olivia had to point out the cheap liners. That's my girl. We settled on a green paisley shower curtain. Jody said it looks like a fabric that I would wear. It looks great in the bathroom. It matches my green walls perfectly. And it brings a smile to my face everytime I see it.
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MIL bought the kids a wii yesterday. I was secretly giddy with excitement over the purchase. Jody said I could get one for my birthday, but I was too cheap to buy one. I had been stalking craigslist hoping for a deal. So MIL bought the system. I bought an extra controller and a chicken shoot game. After we got home I realized we needed a component connector to hook the wii to the tv. The punk kid at Target told me the system came with one, but it didn't. I also bought a game for Paxton and a game for me. Olivia bought her own game since she was originally saving her money for the wii. This little game system has already taken a chunk out of our wallet. It's going to be a lot of fun. I plan on trying out my new game while the kids are in bed tonight.
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My older sister has put her house on the market in Nebraska and is planning to move here. They found a house that they are going to put a bid on. I cannot even express how happy this makes me. It's going to be so weird and wonderful to have some of my family so close. I'll have someone to shop with and clean with and cook with and celebrate birthdays and holidays with and call on when I'm sick or stressed or need help. I hope I'm not driving her crazy with all my incessant calls for updates on the packing/selling/buying situation.
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We had a skunk situation that deserves its own blog post. Our house is now referred to as Skunk Hollow. I have never burned so many candles in my life. Yet another perk of country living.
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The weather has finally cooled off. We are waiting on our electrician to come do some maintenance on our Hardy Wood Furnace before we fire it up. Since we are using the electric heat, we have been keeping the heat set at 66. Using the oven helps warm the house up so I've been trying to bake a lot. I love this time of year!

Becoming a boy

Sawyer got his first hair cut today. Several people told me how cute "she" was lately so I knew it was time. I have to admit this milestone makes me sad. It means my baby isn't a baby anymore. He looks so different with his hair short. They grow up too fast.

Before:
After:

Super Saturday

Olivia and I set up at the market on Saturday. It was the first time we set up without Jody. MIL watched the boys so Olivia and I had some quality time together. We loaded the van full with tables and stuff to sale. I sold some of the items I have bought for cheap bargain shopping: pads, air fresheners, cleaners, razors, diapers, etc. Olivia set up with toys. I made about $70 and Olivia made about $7, and we were only set up for about 2 hours. Not a bad day at all.

A wise man once said

"You cannot bring about prosperity by discouraging thrift.
You cannot establish sound security on borrowed money.
You cannot keep out of trouble by spending more than you earn."

-Abraham Lincoln

Happy Birthday to Me

Today I turn 29. How crazy is that?! We went to the market this morning where I found some good deals. We came home and loaded up FIL's goats to take to the goat auction.

Olivia wanted Jody to take her to get me chocolates (shhh! she doesn't know I know what she wants to get me for my birthday), but Jody couldn't take her because FIL got called into work so Jody had to take the goats to the auction for him. Olivia had a good cry about that. So instead she made me a "scrapbook" and gave me a card. MIL must have found the card for her. Olivia was so proud that she scratched out the 'Happy Mother's Day' on the inside of the card and wrote happy birthday. Paxton was disappointed that I only got one present. He was looking forward to helping me open them.

I took a two hour nap this afternoon. It was wonderful. We splurged and went to Wings to Go for supper and Sonic for dessert. The kids were very well behaved which is an added bonus.

So this is my last year as a twenty something. I swear it seems like just yesterday I was turning 18. 29 years old, married for 8+ years and the mother of three kids. I'm such a grown up now. I'm "getting old" as Olivia would say. And she hasn't even noticed all the grey hair I am starting to see in the mirror.

I wouldn't change a thing. This is the life I dreamed of as a kid. Ok, let's be honest. I wouldn't mind a bigger house and a tidier family, but that would just be an added bonus.

So here's to another year!

Poor baby

We went to some yard sales today and ended up at a friend's house where they were having a yard sale. We stayed and chatted for awhile. When we were getting ready to leave, Paxton decided to run the opposite direction with Sawyer in the stroller. He flipped it over on the cement. I picked it up and Sawyer was bleeding like crazy. His face was scratched up and he busted his mouth open above his top front teeth. I called the ped and there wasn't really anything they can do for it. Poor things lip is all swollen and his face has a serious case of road rash.

This afternoon I took the kids to ride bikes. Sawyer was sitting on the ground playing with twigs and rocks. Paxton started messing with him and knocked him over backwards. I was about to lose it on Paxton at that point.

Jody came with a pair of channel locks to tighten the training wheels on Paxton's bike. He left them on the ground and Sawyer started playing with them. Wouldn't you know he knocked himself below the eye that wasn't all scratched up and left a bruise.

To make him feel better, Jody put Sawyer on Paxton's bike and rode him around. I told Jody to please not injure Sawyer because I don't think I could handle it. A few minutes later Sawyer's foot got caught in the rear tire, and he started crying.

I swear I need a bubble for this kid today.

Well child check-ups

Sawyer and Paxton had well child check-ups today. The stats are:
Paxton-
weight 37 lbs
height 41.25 in
bp 98/60

Sawyer-
weight 20 lbs
height 27.75 in
head circ 18.5 in

Both boys are doing great. Sawyer got another DTaP shot. The ped suggested bringing him back in 2 months since he is "behind" on the immunization schedule. No kidding! I've started having pain in my boobs again and Sawyer has been nursing funny so I mentioned to the ped that I thought Sawyer might be getting thrush again. I really don't think he was treated long enough to get rid of it in the first place. He checked Sawyer's mouth and said it was clear and then gave me some spill about how yeast is naturally in our body so it might just be a fact of life for me. Whatever. Sawyer has a big white patch on his tongue again this evening and I have had more itching and burning as the day has progressed. I think we might try gentian violet and GSE pills tomorrow. I'm also doing research on probiotics. I want this stuff gone for good!

Forward

A friend sent me this forward. Can I get an Amen?

One day a florist goes to a barber for a haircut. After the cut he asks about his bill and the barber replies, 'I cannot accept money from you. I'm doing community service this week.' The florist is pleased and leaves the shop.

When the barber goes to open his shop the next morning there is a 'thank you' card and a dozen roses waiting for him at his door.

Later, a cop comes in for a haircut, and when he tries to pay his bill, the barber again replies, 'I cannot accept money from you. I'm doing community service this week.' The cop is happy and leaves the shop.

The next morning when the barber goes to open up there is a 'thank you' card and a dozen donuts waiting for him at his door.

Later that day, a college professor comes in for a haircut, and when he tries to pay his bill, the barber again replies, 'I cannot accept money from you. I'm doing community service this week.' The professor is very happy and leaves the shop.

The next morning when the barber opens his shop, there is a 'thank you' card and a dozen different books, such as 'How to Improve Your Business' and 'Becoming More Successful'.

Then, a Congressman comes in for a haircut, and when he goes to pay his bill the barber again replies, 'I cannot accept money from you. I'm doing community service this week.' The Congressman is very happy and leaves the shop.

The next morning when the barber goes to open up, there are a dozen congressmen lined up waiting for a free haircut.

And that, my friends, illustrates the fundamental difference between the citizens of our country and the members of our Congress.

Vote carefully this year.

You've got to be kidding me!

I heard about this story on talk radio.

The town is looking into the possibility of an English only resolution, to discourage people from speaking foreign languages in public.

Are you kidding me?! Are people really that narrow-minded? The mayor was right when he called himself a hillbilly.

Happy 4th Birthday, Paxton!

My little boy is 4 today. What a blessing he is in our lives! He's such a shy little thing and didn't want anyone but family at his birthday party. He got toys and clothes and is happy as a clam to play with everything. I can't believe how much he has grown and changed over this last year. It seems like just yesterday he was learning how to walk and talk. I can't imagine my world without him. I love you baby boy. I hope you have a wonderful birthday.

Behold, the Quilt

And after the mastitis…

…comes thrush. I should have clued in when Sawyer started refusing his paci. He always uses his paci. The next day I noticed the big white spot on his tongue. Now this really is my worst fear nursing. The thought of treating yeast is overwhelming to me. I called my ob who prescribed 2 weeks of Diflucan and called the ped. nurse who called in a script for Nystatin. Sawyer finished up the Nystatin yesterday and I still have a couple days left of the Diflucan. For the first time since I started nursing, it doesn’t hurt to breastfeed. I figure that the yeast has probably been the problem for a long time and the antibiotics I was on for mastitis sent it into overdrive. I’ve washed clothes and bras and towels and toys and bottles and pacis like crazy hoping to get rid of the yeast. Do you know how impossible it is to wash everything that a 10 month old puts in his mouth?! I really hope it’s gone and we can continue on with a better nursing experience. It seems like I have had nothing but problems this time.

A Trip to the DMV

I had to go to the DMV to register Jody’s new (used) truck. Like the true stay at home mom that I am, I toted all 3 kids with me. We no more than got our number and sat down when Paxton started doing the potty dance. There were only two people ahead of me so I didn’t want to miss my turn. I could see the bathroom from where I was sitting so I told Olivia to take him.

They were in the bathroom for a few minutes when Olivia pokes her head out and yells, “Mom, Paxton’s going poop!” This kid’s bowels have the worst timing. I told her to tell me when he was finished and I would come wipe his butt (motherhood is such a glorious job). Every once in a while she would poke her head out to give me updates.

Soon it was my turn to go to the counter. I was busy getting the title and license switched over while balancing Sawyer- who is trying to grab my pen and check book and anything else he can get his hand’s on- on my hip when I hear Olivia yell from around the corner “He’s done!” “Tell him he has to wait a few minutes, “ I say. A few minutes later she yells, “He’s getting mad!” Now I’m hearing snickers behind me from the other people waiting.
Unfortunately I had to have Jody sign some paperwork before I could register the car. So I grabbed my stack of papers and high tailed it to the bathroom. I got Paxton cleaned up and headed out the door. You couldn’t miss the chuckles as we walked out the door. We headed to Jody’s work so he could sign the paperwork. Then it was back to the DMV. That trip was a little less exciting.

What a cutie!

Olivia's new passion is giving Sawyer a mohawk. Everytime I turn around, she's wetting his hair and spiking it up. He doesn't seem to mind too much.

Walgreens Deal #3

Total: $30.14 and received $20 RR

Total Savings: $58.27

Walgreens Deal #2

Total: $7.10 and Received $10 in RR
Total Savings: $17.70

Walgreens Deal #1

Buy three Robitussin and get $10 RR back. Robitussin is on sale for $3.99. There are $3 coupons here.

Total: 2.97
Receive $10 RR back

I guess they were on to us. Now there is only a $1 coupon available.

Random thoughts

I am anxiously awaiting the call that my quilt is ready. I can't wait to get it. I have to drive to Heber Springs to pick it up. The Wal-Mart there still has fabrics, unlike the ones around here. I need some fabric for a new quilt pattern I want to try. The only fabric store we have around here is Hancock Fabrics and the quilting fabrics are so darn expensive.
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I love listening to Rush Limbaugh these days. I like listening to Sean Hannity too but I don't catch his show as often.
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I am reading The Tightwad Gazette by Amy Dacyczyn. That book is right up my alley. It's refreshing to know there are people out there that are cheaper than us.
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Sawyer's middle name should have been Hoover. He finds every little thing on the floor and puts it in his mouth.
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I tried watching a documentary about September 11th last night. I had to turn it off because I felt the beginnings of a panic attack. How sad is it that I can't even deal with reality without freaking out.
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My FIL took Monday and Tuesday off because he has vacation days to use. He's already gotten the kids twice today. And he takes Sawyer. How lucky am I?!
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I've been wanting to take an online photography class from ASU Beebe. I'm thinking about using some of the money I make from the consignment sale to pay for a class. Or I could buy the family a Wii. Decisions, decisions.

Defective parts

Nursing has been such an ordeal this time around. I've dealt with pain that my ob and 3 lactation consultants could not pin-point, my supply has been decreasing on one side and, the most recent problem, bleeding, presumably from trauma due to Sawyer's rough nursing style.

Thursday I woke to find my right breast bruised looking with red streaks. Within a few hours I had a fever and chills. The dreaded mastitis. I called my Ob's nurse who consulted with the doctor and called in a prescription for antibiotics and the suggestion to pump for a few days to give my breast some time to heal.

I do not like pumping. I did just enough of it to have a little bit of a freezer supply of milk for an emergency. I never would have guessed that I have an over abundance of the lipase enzyme in my milk that causes the milk to have a nasty metallic flavor when thawed. I had to throw out my entire frozen supply. *sniff, sniff* From now on, I know to scald the milk before freezing to deactivate the enzyme.

I tried to give Sawyer some formula with no luck. He would not take it. I did manage to sneak an ounce or two in when I didn't pump enough milk. I'm proud to say that I managed to pump for three whole days. I think it's helped to build up the supply in my slacker boob and the bruising and streaking are gone. Now I have to remember to take my antibiotic four times a day until it runs out. And I will no longer take for granted whipping out a boob when it's time for Sawyer to eat. There is a lot of convenience in that.

Walgreens Deals

Better late than never. This was for the end of August. Since life is starting to settle down into somewhat of a routine, I'm hoping to start doing more thorough postings of my deals.

Transaction #1

And a bag of gummy worms that the kids ate on the way home.

Total Cost: $3.40

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WAG Coupon Savings: $.50

WAG Advertised Savings: $14.96

MFG Coupon Savings: $24.74

Total Savings: $40.20

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Transaction #2

The flipflops were on sale for 75% off so I bought three pairs in Olivia's current size and 3 pairs in the next size. You can't beat .50 for flops.

Total Cost: $6.42

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WAG Coupon Savings: $2.00

WAG Advertised Savings: $18.29

MFG Coupon Savings: $10.00

Total Savings: $30.29

Back from hiatus

Life got busy and before I knew it, I was way behind on my blog. Let’s see what all has happened since my last post:

*I got my hair cut and highlighted. I love it but I’m still not used to seeing myself with short hair.

*We came home from Nebraska.

*The day after we got home, we left to stay at cabins at Lobo Landing with my family and several family friends. We went swimming, went to the river, went to the lake, went to Wal-Mart and did a whole lot of nothing. It was nice!

*My mom and I took the quilt top I made in college to a lady that does machine quilting. I have been putting off getting it finished for way too long. I can’t wait to get it back. It’s going right onto my bed where I hope it keeps us warm for many, many years.

*My friend’s 11-year-old daughter stayed with us for a week. It was different having an older kid around. She left yesterday. It’s actually weird not having her around any more.

*Olivia got a scholarship to join the Gym Stars gymnastic team. She will be competing as a Level 3. She has gym from 4-8 on Tuesdays. That’s a long workout for a little kid but she seems to love it.

*We started Olivia’s 2nd year of homeschooling. We’ve added more subjects this year so it’s a lot more involved. I’m trying to find the rhythm of cleaning house, entertaining Sawyer and getting school taught. I am constantly amazed at how quickly Olivia picks things up.

*Sawyer has moved up to 6-9 month clothes, is scooting everywhere, and is working on getting several new teeth. The top two are so close do being through. *see photo* He has been so fussy today. I hope he gets a little relief and we all get some sleep tonight.

That's all I can think of for now. I have some Walgreens posts but that will have to wait until a time when Sawyer isn't attached to me.

Milestone

Olivia lost her first tooth today! Another one is hanging on by a thread. She won't have a toothless grin for long because the permanent teeth are already coming in.

A Day with Thomas

Paxton's dream came true. He got to see Thomas the Tank Engine and ride on his train. I have to say it was worth all the stresses of traveling to see the smile on my little boy's face as the train pulled away from the "station". There were lots of activities for the kids. Paxton didn't want to leave when it was time to go.

Paxton was not a big fan of Sir Toppem Hat:


Here's what happens when I let my brother hold Sawyer. He got his first tattoo.

Keeping Busy

I've been trying to keep the kids busy while we are in Nebraska. I know they miss Jody, Mamaw and Papaw so I want them to have a good time while we are away. So far we've celebrated the 4th of July, gone to Railroad Days, visited the zoo, and went swimming a few times. The highlight of our trip will be riding Thomas the Tank Engine next weekend. Paxton is beyond thrilled to be going. I have to admit I'm a little excited too.

Olivia and Paxton at Railroad Days:


Looking at the reptiles at the zoo:

Bargain Shopping

Olivia and I did some bargain shopping today. It's great having so many stores near by. I'm planning on taking my little sister tonight and showing her the ropes.

Total cost: 16.30
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WAG Coupon Savings: 18.60
WAG Advertised Savings: 11.83
MFG Coupon Savings: 12.50
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Total Savings: 42.93

In addition I have $7.00 worth of rebates to send in so I got everything pictured for $9.30. Wow!

65 As a 1930s wife, I am Superior Take the test!

Wordless Wednesday

Happy 4th of July

The food was good. Being with family was great. The fireworks were AWESOME!

We're here!

We made the journey to Nebraska. I managed to only forget one thing. Not bad when packing for four people. Jody drove us to Branson where we met up with Anna and her family. Sawyer had mercy on us and slept most of the way.

If you ever vacation in Branson, I would NOT recommend staying at the Georgetown Inn. MIL happened to be on vacation in Branson at the same time we were, and she had mentioned that was where they were staying. The smoke filled lobby should have been the first indication that the place was a dump. It was so ghetto that they didn't even have wash clothes in the rooms. We suffered since it was only for one night but we will never, ever stay there again. The only perk to the room is that it was right next to a bungy jumping place. People who do that kind of stuff are nuts. I couldn't even watch the first couple people because it freaked me out so bad.

We went to the Dixie Stampede with Anna's crew and headed back to the roach motel. We stayed out late people watching, riding go carts and playing putt putt. It was actually a lot of fun. We'll have to vacation there again when Sawyer is a little bigger.

The next day we met up with Anna and transferred all of my luggage to her vehicle. Jody took the van back home and we rode the rest of the way to Nebraska with Anna. The trip went really smoothly. Sawyer slept most of the way again, and I even got to take a nap in the car, which makes the trip go by so much faster.

It feels so good to be back with my family. They live too far away. I love having help with Sawyer. Sendai has gotten him to go to sleep three times already. (Yes, I'm so excited about it that I'm keeping count.) The kids love having cousins and aunts to play with. And I love the fact that my mom does most of the laundry. I tell ya, it's the simple things in life.

Wordless Wednesday

And the countdown begins

The kids and I are leaving for Nebraska in 4 days. I have so much to do and so little energy to do it. I've started gathering things I need to pack. It's overwhelming when I have to back for me and three kids for a month and a half long vacation. (I use the term vacation loosely since I'll be without a husband during that time.) I have a list which is always a good place to start. The suitcases are now down and sitting in the living room waiting to be filled.

The plan is: Jody will drive us to Branson on Saturday afternoon where we will meet up with Anna and her family. We will stay the night in a hotel Saturday night. Sunday Jody will head back home, and the kids and I will ride back with Anna to Omaha. I am dreading the drive. 7 hours in a car with 3 kids and baby does not sound fun. Hopefully the kids cooperate and we have a swift journey.

Happy 6th Birthday Olivia !

My little Olivia bug,
The day you were born, you made my dreams come true. You made me a mother. I cannot believe that you are six years old today. Where has the time gone? It seems like just yesterday you were taking your first steps and learning how to talk. Now you talk nonstop and are fantastic gymnast. I love seeing the world through your eyes. You bring me so much happiness and joy. I love you baby girl. Happy 6th birthday!
Mom

Behold, The Cake

It wasn't as perfect as I would like it to be, but it was the best I could do with a 7 month old that cries all the time. It was a lot of fun to make. And even more fun to eat.

10 Things I Love

1. My family.
2. Rumble storms.
3. Fresh baked bread.
4. Working in the garden.
5. A clean house.
6. Naptime.
7. Scrapbooking.
8. Bargain shopping.
9. Newborn babies.
10. A good book.

10 Things That Annoy Me

1. Being treated like I'm dumb.
2. Hearing crunching and slurping noises when someone eats, especially cereal.
3. Tailgating.
4. People who complain about money problems but spend money frivolously.
5. Obscene language and sex on tv.
6. Relatives that think they are too good for us.
7. Clutter.
8. A baby that cries because he's tired but refuses to go to sleep.
9. Half butt-ers.
10. Whining.

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day to my Pa and to my husband. Thanks for all you do!

Happy 8th Anniversary

Today is our 8 year anniversary. Last night we were talking about our plans for the day, and Jody said he didn't have any. I told him after 8 years of marriage he had better know better.

The creative juices weren't flowing and I hadn't gotten Jody anything either. I had to run some errands today and I remembered the chocolate shop owned by a family from our Ward. Jody loves their chocolates. So I stopped in with the kids and picked him out an assortment of chocolates. Imagine my surprise when Jody walked in from work with an assortment of chocolates for me too. We know each other too well. We figure the owner had a good laugh at us both coming in. They made some good money off our family today.

Jody also got me a gift certificate for a massage. He scored big time with that one. I can't wait to use it.

My friend Danae watched the kids while Jody and I went out to eat. It was nice to have some alone time together. It's nice having a meal where I'm not constantly filling a drink for this kid or getting a napkin for that kid.

It's hard to believe we've been married for 8 years. I feel so blessed to have Jody for a husband. He makes being in love easy. I cannot imagine my world without him.

And the doctor said...

The tick bite is infected. I didn't see that diagnosis coming *insert sarcasm here*. Paxton is on Bactrim twice a day for 10 days. If it's not looking better by Friday I have to take him back. That boy has the weirdest problems. And have I ever mentioned how horrible he is about taking medicine. It's going to be a fun 10 days.

Tick Bite

I've never seen a reaction like this? Does it warrant a trip to the doctor?

Where's the beef?

We went to Taco Bell for supper tonight. Imagine our surprise when we were informed by the cashier that they were out of beef. How exactly does Taco Bell run out of beef? It's not like they don't know they are going to need it.We decided to get something safe - cinnamon twists- for a snack and eat supper at home.

There's a cow by the hammock!

I was laying in bed nursing Sawyer early this morning when Olivia yells:

O- Mom, come here!

Me- I can't. I'm feeding your brother.

O- You gotta see this!

Me- What is it?

O- There's a cow by the hammock.

It wouldn't be the first time I woke up to find a cow in the yard. Every once in awhile a cow escapes from the ranch that borders our land. I told Olivia to call Papaw. He used to work for the ranch and knows how to handle cows. But Papaw didn't answer his phone. Then I remembered my garden. No way was a cow going to eat my hard work. So I jumped up and looked out to see where the cow was. I busted out laughing. It wasn't a cow. It was a DEER!

Rx

I managed to make it through my doctor's appointment without a meltdown. I am so thankful for that. I had a blood draw to check my thyroid. I should get the results on Monday. I talked to the doctor about how I was struggling with my anxiety, especially in the evenings. He suggested that I play around with the dosage of Zoloft I am on. I am going to start by taking 25 mg at noon in addition to the 50 mg I take at night. Hopefully that will help balance things out. The doctor reassured my, without really trying, that this isn't me; It's my hormones and the chemicals in the body causing me to feel this way. I told him how scared I was to take medication after the reaction I had to the Celexa. He said not to worry. The strongest reaction is when you first start the medication and I am past that. I hope the second dose works. The constant battles of trying not to lose it are exhausting.

I'm out of control!

Bargain shopping at Target

Total cost: $11.94
Total Savings: $35.00

Total cost: $6.74
Total Savings: $23.00

One small step

I made an appointment today with my family doctor to get my thyroid checked and discuss my anxiety issues. I've been putting this off for too long. I hope he has some insight into how to get things under control. I need to get myself stabalized before I head to Nebraska with the kids for a month and a half. I want to feel like myself again.

7 Month Well Baby Check Up

The stats:
15 lb 11 oz - 10%
27.25 inches long - 50%

Sawyer is consistent on his growth curve. He's just a peanut. He's 3 pounds lighter than Olivia and Paxton were at his age. His pediatrician is concerned that he is refusing all solids and will only drink breast milk. He suggested having someone else keep Sawyer for 24 hours and have them offer the food. Seems a little drastic to me at this point. The ped said if Sawyer doesn't start eating within the next month he may need therapy. Only my kid would need therapy to learn to eat. The ped also says his size may be causing his fussiness. Small size means less hormones and chemicals in his body which means slower development; therefore, he asks more like a 5 month old than a 7 month old. Sounds like a good theory to me. The ped also said it looks like Sawyer's 4 bottom teeth are all coming through at about the same time and they are close to the surface. That could explain a lot of the fussiness and the constant chewing on everything in site.

I went ahead and had Sawyer get his first vaccine - DTaP. I never in my life thought I would be a delayed/selective vaccinator. After much research, I'm doing what feels right for Sawyer, our family and our community. Luckily the ped is supportive of us vaxing on our own schedule. I'll probably do one vaccine a month which was fine with the doctor. He also wants me to bring Sawyer back at 9 months to see how he is developing. Hopefully all is well and Sawyer is just a slow sprouter.

Rude things people say

I've been wanting to get my hair cut. Sawyer likes to pull on it and eat it so I end up keeping it pulled back. I was in town for an appointment today and Jody was finished at work so I sent him home with the kids, and I went to get my haircut. This is the first time he's kept all three kids, but I assured him his mom was home to help out. I figured that between the two of them, they would be ok. Sawyer got fussy while I was gone because he was hungry, but he wouldn't take a bottle. It turns out he didn't like the nipple, but that's not the point of my story. While Jody and MIL were dealing with Sawyer, MIL tells him she can't believe he hasn't gotten snipped yet. WTH is that supposed to mean?! Like it's any of her business how many children we choose to have! It's not the first time she's made a comment like that, and it really irks me.

Loose Tooth

Olivia has her first loose tooth. She is insanely excited, and I am secretly sad. My baby girl is growing up too fast! Just this morning Olivia asked me when she was going to have a loose tooth. She is jealous that her friend has already lost a few teeth. Her first question when she found out it was loose was "How much will the tooth fairy bring?" Then she mentioned hearing it was something like five dollars. That girl is always looking to make some money. She has a lot of her father's blood in her.

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

You Are Cowboy Boots

This doesn't mean you're country, just funky. You've got a ton of attitude and confidence. You're unique, expressive, and even a little bit wacky. You wear whatever you feel like – and you have your own sense of style. You are straight shooting and honest. You tell people how it is. Low maintenance and free wheeling, you're always up for an adventure. You should live: Where you can at least get to wide open spaces You should work: In a job that allows you to take change

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

There is a perk to having your garden right outside your door. I can randomly go out and look at it throughout the day. I can't believe how fast the plants grow. I love that I can go out and weed it for the few minutes that Sawyer is happy. I need to pick up some more squash and cucumber seeds. Most of the ones I planted didn't come up. That's what I get for buying the Wal-Mart brand.
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I had my hopes set on getting my hair cut tomorrow. I even had a sitter arranged for the kids. My hairdresser didn't have any morning apparents though. So now I have to wait. Sometimes I think about finding a new hairdresser but I would feel like I am cheating on the one I have. I've used her for several years. Is that weird? Should I care?
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Jody said I seem like I am more burned out after having Sawyer. It makes me sad. I've really struggled this time- both emotionally and physically. Sometimes I am just tired. I know part of the problem is a lack of intimacy, but it is hard to be intimate when all the intimate parts of my body hurt. I am so lucky to be married to such a patient man. I only hope he knows how much I love him.
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I did some more bargain shopping at Kroger yesterday. Can I just tell you how much fun it is! It's a total addiction. I'm already set up for my next trip to the store. I found out about some new eSaver coupons, and I can't wait to try them out.
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Sawyer slept so well last night. He got up twice to eat and went right back to sleep. No fussing. It was wonderful. I'm hoping for a repeat tonight. I could use the sleep.

Walgreens Deals

CoverGirl cheekers 3.99
CoverGirl lip gloss 5.49
CoverGirl eye liner 2.99
CoverGirl lip slicks 3.79
CoverGirl lip slicks 3.79
CoverGirl nail polish 3.99
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WAG Advertised Savings $5.40
MFG Coupon Saving $7.49
Total Price $12.64 and received $20 register rewards


Crest toothpaste 3/7.50
Kotex 3.49
Stayfree Maxis 2@3.49
Sugar
Cascade Powder 2.50
Ivory soap 1.29
Schick Quattro cartridges 8.99
Oral B Floss 2.50
Oral B Toothbrush 4.49
Aqua Fresh Toothbrush 3.79
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WAG Coupon Savings $3.10
WAG Advertised Savings $6.25
MFG Coupon Savings $20.50
Total Price $24.17 and received $10 register rewards

Wal-Mart Deals

Honey Bunches of Oats $1.98 - $2.00q
Malt-o-Meal cereal $2.68 - $1.50q
Huggies Clean Team wipes $1.64x2 - $3.00q
Herbal Essence styling product $3.14 - $1.00q
Pampers comped for $8.50x2 - $2.50q
Granola Bars $2.84x3 - $3.00q
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Spent $36.60
Savings $13.00
My cost $23.60

Homemade Bread

Nothing tastes better than homemade bread. I could live off the stuff. My friend Sarah gave me a recipe for wheat bread that makes three loaves. I finally found the time and energy to make some today. My plan is to make some every week or two so we can avoid buying bread at the store. I asked Jody what he thought of it and he said it was okay. Then he made some comment about how he wasn't sure he would like eating sandwhiches made with it. WTH?! Can he seriously be that warped that store bought, preservative loaded bread tastes better than the homemade stuff. I politely told him he would get use to it. ;)

It's that time of year

Thanks to a visit from a friend, I was able to get our garden in yesterday. Well, we got everything in but the bell peppers; they didn't have any at the store. This is our third attempt at a garden spot. You would think that with 41 acres, it would be easy to find a garden spot. Unfortunately we live on rock and clay, and it is impossible to till the ground. Our ground is so hard, our septic tank is partially above ground. I had the brilliant idea to use the kids sandbox as a garden spot. It didn't have any sand in it anyway. We're doing it as a square foot garden. I love the organization of it. I'm hoping that it will get enough sun. And hopefully the critters will leave it alone since it is in the middle of our yard.

Play Time

We have upgraded to the playsaucer. I wasn't quite ready to put that beast of a thing in the livingroom but Sawyer seems to like it. He likes to look at himself in the mirror and grin. He's growing up so fast!

Shouldn't your body feel better when you are postpartum? My boobs hurt, my butt hurts, my girly bits hurt and my back is sore from carrying around a fussy boy all the time.
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It's been our month to clean the church. Somehow we always have a fussy baby when it's our turn. Thankfully Jody cleans like a tornado and gets things done in a hurry. We didn't clean the chalk boards like they asked. Honestly I have no idea what to clean them with, and the chemical cabinet wasn't exactly organized. Still, I feel guilty. It is the Lord's house we are taking care of.
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Jody bought a flat of strawberries at the market. He got ripped on the price, but they are yummy. We had strawberry shortcake for dessert. We should eat like that every night.
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I should be getting my Sharing Time lesson ready for tomorrow. But instead I'm here playing on the internet. I will pay for that later.
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The panic attacks are returning. I don't know what to do. I should make an appointment with my PCP I suppose. I want to get my thyroid checked too. Bleh!
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I would like to get my hair cut. I haven't had it cut since before Sawyer was born. I would like it cut in a cute little bob but that isn't feasible. I need to be able to pull it back so Sawyer can't hold on to it for dear life.
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I had a tornado dream last night. It is one of the recurring dreams I have. It didn't end good. Not a nice thing to wake up to.
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Both of my grandmothers were/are good at crossword puzzles. I think that I should be genetically predisposed to be good at them too. So far, it's not looking so good.

I should really get to work on that lesson for tomorrow...

Another one for Tia Sendai

Random thoughts

I gave Sawyer rice cereal for the first time today. He didn't seem too excited. After a few bites he threw himself backwards and started looking for a boob. Maybe he's not quite ready for solids. Or I caught him at a bad time.
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My anxiety is bad tonight. Just when I start to feel normal again, I feel like I can't breath and the panic feeling starts creeping in. I hate feeling like this. This must be what crazy feels like.
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Earl came by and pulled our tractor out of the mud. Jody got it stuck on Sunday. All the rain we've gotten lately has done a number of the ground. There is still a creek running across our driveway and more rain in the forecast.
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I went swimsuit shopping yesterday. I'm sure the kids and I provided some great amusement for the associate manning the changing rooms. While I'm trying the suits on Paxton yells out "I see your boobies!" and "I see your underwear!" while laughing hysterically. Then I'm yelling at him to not open the door and quit crawling under it. Meanwhile, Olivia is holding Sawyer who has run out of patience and is starting to cry. I ended up buying a swimsuit with the hope that I don't have to do that again for a long time.
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My fear while nursing has always been thrush. The thought of it has always been overwhelming. Sawyer has been popping on and off all day today while he nurses. Now I'm sore. I consulted doctor google and we show some of the symptoms. Please let it be a coincidence.
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I've been going to bed a little earlier lately and reading Unlocking The Book of Mormon. It's a nice way to do daily scripture study. I need to remember to thank my mom for getting me the book.
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I smoked my sister in a game of scramble by 102 points. It was a total fluke but I had to mention it since she reads my blog.

The Boys

The hitch hiker

Jody saw a hitch hiker today that was missing most of her thumb. If you ever think your life sucks, it coud be worse.

Happy Spring!

Me to the kids: Guess what? Today is the first day of Spring.

The kids jump up and look out the window.

Olivia looks at me with an upset look on her face and says: Where are all the flowers?

I can't make this stuff up folks.

Which princess are you?

You Are Belle!

Intelligent and kind. Your beauty goes much further than your apperance. Also, you make judgements of people based on their personality and not their looks. Attaining all the knowledge that you can is one of your major goals in life, but you are also a person who can make things happen.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Momnesia

The Today Show did a story on "momnesia" today. It's nice to know I'm normal and not completely losing my mind. Sometimes it is scary how forgetful I have become. I think it worries Jody sometimes too. Considering they say you lose 700+ hours of sleep when you have a baby, I'm probably doing ok.

For Sendai

How it plays out

The scene is set. Olivia and Paxton are staying the night at the IL's. Sawyer is almost asleep. Jody has the look of longing in his eyes. We have plans...

...And the phone rings. My dad and brother have come down for a weekend fishing trip at the Little Red River. The rear end of their Blazer has gone out and they are stranded without a vehicle or a way to get their boat to the cabin. Jody has to go rescue them with his dad's truck. I have to laugh. Never make plans in this family.

Murphy's Lesser Known Laws

1. Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people "appear" bright until you hear them speak.

2. Change is inevitable-- except from a vending machine.

3. Those who live by the sword get shot by those who don't.

4. Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.

5. The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability that you'll get it wrong.

6. If you lined up all the cars in the world end to end, someone would be stupid enough to try to pass them, on a hill, in the fog.

7. The things that come to those who wait will be the scraggly junk left by those who got there first.

8. The shin bone is a device for finding furniture in a dark room.

9. A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.

10. When going to court, you are putting yourself in the hands of twelve people who weren't smart enough to get out of jury duty.

RBS

I saw a commercial for Restless Leg Syndrome. I had to laugh. I don't have RLS. I have RBS - Restless Baby Syndrome. I don't know if it's because he doesn't feel good, if he is having a growth spurt, or if this is just a phase, but Sawyer does not want to sleep, and he doesn't want to be put down. My arms are tired from holding him, my neck is sore from sleeping funny and my house needs a good scrubbing. Being a mommy is kicking my butt right now.

And you know the funny thing? Jody has been so paranoid about me getting pregnant again. Having a third kid is the best birth control we could ever have. We can barely find time to have an adult conversation, much less have sex.

Honor roll

Sawyer is now on the roll! He rolled over in bed this morning, and I wondered if it was for real. So I put him in his crib and he rolled over two more times. My baby is growing up too fast!

Is this day over yet?

Can you tell what kind of day I had today?

Sawyer has been sick. I had to drop off clothes for a consignment sale today at 4 o'clock. I had planned on pricing everything last night after Sawyer went to sleep. Instead I ended up taking Sawyer to an Uri-Care and getting home late. So today I had to work like crazy to get everything priced and ready to go. Of course Sawyer wanted to be held since he didn't feel good. He finally took a nap so I was able to get almost everything done.

In the meantime, the kids completely detroyed the house - food everywhere, toys everywhere, clothes everywhere. Is this what my house would look like if I didn't pick up constantly throughout the day? Was it I who raised these animals?

Needless to say, the kids and I didn't get along very well today as evidenced in the picture Olivia drew for me. I was able to turn it into a teachable moment. You spell mom m-o-m not m-a-m although Olivia had to point out that I am a ma'am too. [sigh]

Let's just say, I'm glad this day is over. Here's hoping tomorrow is better.

We got our yearly dose of nicotine and our taxes done this evening. The highlight was watching our accountant’s dog humping a pillow. Seriously, the dog would hump the pillow until it was worn out, lie down and rest for a few minutes and then get up and start humping the pillow again. This went on the entire time we were in her office. It was freaking hilarious!

We are getting back a fat return again. Jody has dreams of putting it in the bank, and I have dreams of getting rock for our road, fixing his car and some other minor things. Jody and I agree that we wouldn’t get along as well if we actually had money. He would want to save every penny and I would want to do a little retail therapy now and then.
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Speaking of retail therapy, I found Boggle Jr. on sale for $5 at Wal-Mart. Olivia has been watching me play Scramble and repeatedly asks to play. Now she can play too. I figure it will be a nice supplement for her lessons. And of course Paxton is excited to play too.
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The flu is running rampant around these parts. I heard that the hospital and ER were so crowded with flu patients that people were lined up in the halls with IVs. It makes me not want to go anywhere or take the kids anywhere. I feel guilty for not getting them the flu shot (they’ve gotten it every other year), but I’ve heard that it doesn’t cover the strains going around. My one consolation is that at least Olivia isn’t in school. I’m sure that greatly decreases our exposure. Olivia is invited to a birthday party tomorrow and Jody suggested that she not go just because of everything going around. Does that make us over-protective parents?

Happy V-Day

Nothing says I LOVE YOU like a chocolate pie and a dirty card. Happy Valentine’s Day, Jody!

SIGN THE PLEDGE-NO SALES FEB 18-25!

What is eBay thinking?!

Sign the pledge and make your voices heard.

Tell your friends.

EXERCISES TO REDUCE PANIC SYMPTOMS

Use abdominal breathing.

See, touch, and feel the objects around you.

Tell yourself the feelings are not harmful.

Tell yourself the feelings will pass.

Visualize a peaceful scene.

Let your mind go blank.

Passively accept your symptoms.

Meditate.

Sing or hum a tune.

Read a book.

Talk to a friend.

Pet your dog or cat.

Take a walk.

Take a warm bath.

Splash cold water on your face.

Clean the house or wash the car.

Wind Damage

A boatload of rain and then 50+ mph winds made for a scary situation. The lights flickered and went off and on several times but luckily we never lost power.

This is a group of pinetrees on the ranch. More than half of them were blown down.


This is a tree blown down over the fence line from the IL's house.

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary, Ma and Pa!!!

May you have many more years of happiness together.

Chuck E Cheese

An invitation

Today bishop extended an invitation for Jody and I to attend the temple prep class during the second block of meetings. I am so excited. I have been waiting to take this class for a long time and I think it may be a good thing for Jody. Bishop said he would talk to him about it but I went ahead and told Jody. He was actually supportive. His only complaint was that now he'll only get a one hour nap in the van during church. I'm hoping this is a step forward for us.

2 months old

Sawyer is smiling more everyday. Talk about melt my heart! He's growing up too fast. If there is anything the other two kids have taught me, it's to treasure every moment. Before I know it they will all be grown up and off to college.