Play Time

We have upgraded to the playsaucer. I wasn't quite ready to put that beast of a thing in the livingroom but Sawyer seems to like it. He likes to look at himself in the mirror and grin. He's growing up so fast!

Shouldn't your body feel better when you are postpartum? My boobs hurt, my butt hurts, my girly bits hurt and my back is sore from carrying around a fussy boy all the time.
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It's been our month to clean the church. Somehow we always have a fussy baby when it's our turn. Thankfully Jody cleans like a tornado and gets things done in a hurry. We didn't clean the chalk boards like they asked. Honestly I have no idea what to clean them with, and the chemical cabinet wasn't exactly organized. Still, I feel guilty. It is the Lord's house we are taking care of.
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Jody bought a flat of strawberries at the market. He got ripped on the price, but they are yummy. We had strawberry shortcake for dessert. We should eat like that every night.
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I should be getting my Sharing Time lesson ready for tomorrow. But instead I'm here playing on the internet. I will pay for that later.
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The panic attacks are returning. I don't know what to do. I should make an appointment with my PCP I suppose. I want to get my thyroid checked too. Bleh!
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I would like to get my hair cut. I haven't had it cut since before Sawyer was born. I would like it cut in a cute little bob but that isn't feasible. I need to be able to pull it back so Sawyer can't hold on to it for dear life.
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I had a tornado dream last night. It is one of the recurring dreams I have. It didn't end good. Not a nice thing to wake up to.
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Both of my grandmothers were/are good at crossword puzzles. I think that I should be genetically predisposed to be good at them too. So far, it's not looking so good.

I should really get to work on that lesson for tomorrow...

Another one for Tia Sendai

Random thoughts

I gave Sawyer rice cereal for the first time today. He didn't seem too excited. After a few bites he threw himself backwards and started looking for a boob. Maybe he's not quite ready for solids. Or I caught him at a bad time.
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My anxiety is bad tonight. Just when I start to feel normal again, I feel like I can't breath and the panic feeling starts creeping in. I hate feeling like this. This must be what crazy feels like.
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Earl came by and pulled our tractor out of the mud. Jody got it stuck on Sunday. All the rain we've gotten lately has done a number of the ground. There is still a creek running across our driveway and more rain in the forecast.
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I went swimsuit shopping yesterday. I'm sure the kids and I provided some great amusement for the associate manning the changing rooms. While I'm trying the suits on Paxton yells out "I see your boobies!" and "I see your underwear!" while laughing hysterically. Then I'm yelling at him to not open the door and quit crawling under it. Meanwhile, Olivia is holding Sawyer who has run out of patience and is starting to cry. I ended up buying a swimsuit with the hope that I don't have to do that again for a long time.
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My fear while nursing has always been thrush. The thought of it has always been overwhelming. Sawyer has been popping on and off all day today while he nurses. Now I'm sore. I consulted doctor google and we show some of the symptoms. Please let it be a coincidence.
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I've been going to bed a little earlier lately and reading Unlocking The Book of Mormon. It's a nice way to do daily scripture study. I need to remember to thank my mom for getting me the book.
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I smoked my sister in a game of scramble by 102 points. It was a total fluke but I had to mention it since she reads my blog.

The Boys