Sleep

I ignored the 5 loads of laundry that need to be washed, the 2 loads of laundry that need to be folded, the dishes that need to be done, and the toys all over the floor. I went to bed at 6:30 last night and I actually got 3 hours of sleep in a row. It was bliss! When Sawyer was up from 1-5 this morning, I had the energy to deal with him. It's the little things that mean the most these days.

Good to go

I had my 4 week postpartum check-up today. Funny how the weirdest things make me sad. I have three pounds to lose and I will be at my prepregnancy weight. Everything is healed and back to the way they should be. I would say normal but I don't remember what that is anymore. I got a script for the minipill and suggestions for dealing with my hemorrhoids. I go back in a year for my annual pap. The nurse sent suckers home for the kids. I wish they could have gone with but they would have had way too many questions that I don't want to answer yet.

Christmas shopping was unproductive. Jody and I are too cheap to pay full price for toys that you can get at a yard sale for fifty cents. I did pick up some glass bottles and onesies for Sawyer. I am exhausted from lack of sleep, trying not to cry and being on the go. I vow to go to sleep as soon as Sawyer does tonight. I need to get some shut eye so I can feel a little more human.

Chugging along

Day 2 was better than Day 1. Probably because MIL took the kids first thing in the morning and didn't bring them back until noon. I was able to do dishes and fold 4 loads of laundry. Sawyer would not sleep all day. When he did fall asleep, he would wake up the instant I laid him down. Judging by the size of my boobs this morning, I'm thinking growth spurt. He's currently racked out in his laundry basket bed so maybe it's over.

Tomorrow I have my 4 week postpartum checkup. I'm feeling great minus the pain in my butt. Literally. Dang hemorrhoids. Jody and I are leaving Olivia and Paxton with MIL and taking Sawyer. After my appointment we plan on doing a little Christmas shopping in NLR. It'll be nice to get out and spend some time together. Hopefully we can find some good deals.

Day 1

Today was my first day alone with the kids since my sister and her little boy left. I only had two crying episodes. Sawyer wanted to be held all morning, Olivia and Paxton were into everything, and Olivia was so mouthy. I told Jody we have got to stop that behavior. We did manage to get lessons done. And I got a load of laundry washed and dried. It does get better, right?

A Name and a Blessing

Today my dad blessed Paxton at church. It was beautiful. I was a hormonal, crying mess as usual. Will these emotions ever level out? After sacrament meeting everyone packed up and left for home. The house is so quiet now. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I couldn't ask for a better holiday.

Due Date

It's hard to believe that today is my due date and yet I've held my baby in my arms for three weeks. And it's hard to believe that three weeks have gone by already since Sawyer was born. My pregnancy weight is already gone. And gone are all the pregnancy aches and pains. I get a strange pang of sadness and emptiness when I touch my belly. It's weird how I could feel so miserable while I was pregnant, but feel so sad about not being pregnant now. All these hormones have done a number on me this time.

I love newborns. I love the way Sawyer curls up in my arms and drift off to sleep on my chest. I love the way his eyes flutter when he sleeps and the constant change of expressions on his face. This is what true love is.

Introducing...

Sawyer Lee
Born October 30, 2007 at 8:20 pm
7 lbs 1 oz
20 inches long

Birth story to follow when I have the time and the energy to write it all down. It was a long day, but totally worth it.