So the shock is wearing off, but not the denial. My mind doesn't handle change well, and it's hard to believe I'm really pregnant. My pg sypmtoms so far: crampy, sore bbs, metallic taste in my mouth, nauceous, tired, insomnia and bloated. I don't remember feeling this way so early on with the other two pregnancies. This could be a long 1st trimester.

The only people we have told that I am pregnant are my family and my internet friends. It's hard to keep it a secret. We aren't ready to tell the kids yet (the minute I do I know I will be hearing "are you going to have the baby yet?" 20 times a day until I actually delivery) and if we aren't telling the kids, we can't tell the ILs, and if we don't tell the ILs, I don't feel right telling other people. So we're waiting. What an exciting secret to have!

Kayla and Patrick's wedding reception was last night. It was beautiful - basically the reception you dream of having but are too cheap to afford. Olivia was the cutest flower girl. She got compliments all night and she was very well behaved. I'll post pics later. I'm too tired right now.

I'm waiting to go to bed. I'm tired, but if I go to sleep now I know I will be up in the middle of the night. We have a busy morning tomorrow. I would love to be able to sleep in- or sleep at all these days.

I took a nap today while the kids were at the ILs. I was dead asleep when MIL called to tell me Paxton had a dirty diaper, and he wouldn't let her change it. I went up to their house in a sleepy stupor and changed the diaper. On the way out the door my MIL has the nerve to say she turns off the phone when she takes a nap so people don't call and disturb her. I was way sleepy and extremely grumpy so I turned around and walked out the door before I went postal on her. She knew I was taking a nap when she called. And it turns out Jody pulled into the driveway when I was headed back home so he could have taken care of the diaper. Grrrr. I swear these people make me crazy sometimes.

We went fishing today. The crappie were biting like crazy. Olivia got to reel in a bunch of fish. Paxton threw rocks and cow poop in the water. Ewww! He got a bath the minute we got home. It was one of the best fishing trips I have been on in a long time. I look forward to the fish fry that follows.