Happy Birthday to Me

30 here I come!

Here is my "I'm in denial that I'm turning 30" hair color. I love the purple. Sendai and I decided we should do this every decade.
Jody got me 5 lbs of snow crab legs for my birthday. I decided to be nice and share. We were surprised that Olivia wanted in on the action.

Let the countdown begin

I have less than 2 hours left of being 29. I feel very sad about this. In honor of the big 3-0 Sendai and I had a girl's day out and dyed a chunk of our hair purple. Pictures to follow...

Pettiskirt

Olivia is invited to a Rock Star themed birthday party tomorrow. The kids are suppose to dress up in rack star garb. I've been thinking about making a pettiskirt after a friend mentioned seeing them on vacation. I thought this was a good time to dust off my sewing machine and working on a new project. The pettiskirt turned out nice. There are some things I know now that will make the process a lot quicker next time, like the fact that a ruffler foot exists and will make gathering a breeze or that the chiffon they sale in town frays. I plan on ordering some nylon chiffon online and tweaking the pattern a bit the next time.

Rolling, rolling, rolling

There are some great deals at Walgreens this week. I'm glad I checked out afullcup to get the scoop on great rolling scenarios. The kids had dental appointments in NLR so we hit 5 Walgreens on the way home. This is the loot:


I spent $37.71 oop and brought home $12.50 in RR. That means I have $25.21 into everything in the photo! I was running low on my supply for our flea market booth so this should really help out. We are going to NLR on Friday for Paxton's birthday so I may make the rounds again.

A sad day in Arkansas history

Today was the first day to buy lottery tickets in Arkansas. They say how wonderful it will be to provide scholarships for students in Arkansas. I think that's a bunch of a bull. Just another way that the poor get poorer.

Ewwwww

A couple of days ago there was an injured raccoon wandering around our yard. Jody was going to shoot it but couldn't find any .22 shells (that stock pile is real helpful when it's buried and unreachable in his shed). He was on his way out the door to run an errand so he said he would take care of it later. The raccoon was gone when he got back and long forgotten.

Fast forward to today. There was a smell. A smell like something died under the porch. Searching out death odors is not under my list of household responsibilities. As soon as Jody got in from work, I asked him to investigate.

Confirmed: dead raccoon under the porch.

GROSS!! He removed it and almost lost his lunch in the process. I love that man. And the next time he complains about changing a dirty diaper, it so isn't going to fly.

Bedazzled

We have a rule in my family that you can get your ears pierced when you turn 7. My niece Soraya turned 7 earlier this month and planned on getting her ears pierced on her birthday. Olivia asked why she didn't get her ears pierced when she turned 7. I told her I never mentioned it to her because I figured she was too chicken to go through with it. The girl can be a bit of a drama queen. True to form, Olivia went with Soraya to get their ears pierced and Olivia chickened out.

Yesterday we watched the video of Soraya getting her ears pierced, and Olivia asked if she could get hers done. I told her yes but she really had to do it this time. We went to the store, Olivia picked out which earrings she wanted, and she got her ears pierced! Not even a peep out of her. She is so proud of them and told anyone who would listen that she got her ears pierced today.

Annual review

It's 4:40 in the afternoon. I look around and I'm not sure what I've accomplished today. I spent way too much time this morning trying to figure out how to serge curves. I washed and dried a load of laundry. I fed the kids. I helped Olivia do her lessons. I took Paxton to Speech and Occupational Therapy and made a trip to the grocery store. Ok so I've done something today.

I guess lately I've been feeling a little guilty. Jody works 8-14 hours a day. He's a slave to the man. His job sucks but someone has to do it. My "job" is to take care of the house. It's primarily my responsibility as a stay at home mom to take care of the kids, clean, cook, etc. When I look at my house lately, I'm failing at my job. The place is a wreck. I know part of it is my fault. I get overwhelmed and/or frustrated and I quit or do the bare minimum. Let's face it, I could find a million other things to do rather than scrubbing toilets or washing windows. That would never fly in a workplace. I either need to find a new job or figure out a way to do a better job where I'm at.

So this is my goal: Be a better employee for my family. I'm going to clean the bathroom before there is a ring around the toilet and mop the floors before I stick to them. I'm going to be better organized and more effecient. And I'm going to teach my kids to clean up after themselves. Ok so that just may be wishful thinking, but a girl can dream.

Re: Dog bite

I talked to SIL yesterday. She said they locked the dog in the gate around their backyard (they usually use the back door to go in and out of the house) and opened the side door (which I have never seen them use). My niece forgot and tried to go through the back door. So SIL had no remorse because the kids went where they weren't suppose to. I asked her if she was worried about her kids being around the dog because that's not a nip, that dog was after flesh. She said no. There's always that chance but she wasn't worried about it. I just hope she's right.

Dog bite

MIL took Olivia to Jody's brother's house to swim. They have a little girl that's Olivia's age and a little boy that's 2. Olivia and her cousin were going in the house to change clothes. BIL and SIL have 3 chows. Olivia tried to get through the gate and one of the dogs was standing there. She tried to be friendly and walk by, and it bit her. Apparently she is the 5th person this dog has bitten. Poor girl is hurting and it doesn't help that she's a drama queen.

The part that really stinks is Olivia is already afraid of dogs. Now she's really going to freak out when one comes around her.

Random thoughts

I've been slacking on my blogging. Having super slow internet and a crazy busy life doesn't help.

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Our flea market booth is doing awesome! Gathering up stuff to put in it and making trips to straighten it and stock it keeps me busy. It's a great way to make some extra money. I finally splurged and bought PhotoShop Elements 7.0 with some of my profits.

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Paxton has been seeing an OT twice a week for Sensory Integration Disorder. He hasn't been officially diagnosed (we are working on that) but the OT's evaluation shows that he demonstrates a defensive sensory system in the areas of auditory, vestibular, tactile and oral sensory processing. We are starting to see an improvement with therapy. I struggle with how to deal with some of his behaviors. Therapy has helped some and I'm hoping that once he has an official diagnosis I will have more resources to get answers to my questions. Mostly my heart hurts for him. I see that as he gets older, he acts different than other kids his age and that makes me sad for him. I want him to be accepted and loved. I want him to be strong and successful. I'm anxious for what the future holds for him.

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I finally, after putting it off for 10+ years, had my two wisdom teeth removed. It wasn't nearly as bad as I imagined it would be. The anticipation was by far the worst part. Thankfully I had Sendai here to help take care of me. And Xanax is a wonderful drug.

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We found out today they are putting an oil well on our section. What does this mean? We may get royalties, and I may actually have a way to afford the house addition I so desperately dream of. Of course Jody says we are going to stick the money in the bank. I rolled my eyes and told him he can put his portion in the bank. I have big plans for mine.

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I wish I didn't have to feel guilty about wanting another baby.

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We've started up year 3 of homeschooling. Olivia's reading improved a lot over the summer. She's getting better about doing her lessons without whining and crying the entire time. My friend that is a teacher is going to test her and see where she is at as far as skills for her age. I'm curious to see how she does.

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We gained some new pets today. We had one female rabbit for Olivia. Jody got a male and pregnant female rabbit from someone today. We put all three rabbits together and it very quickly was becoming a birds and the bees lesson so we had to seperate them. Olivia thought is was so funny that the rabbits were so excited to see each other that they were "fighting". Sounded like a good explanation to me.

I hate to say I told you so

To Whom It May Concern:

Having grown up in Arkansas, I know how important it is to keep up with severe weather. My family relies on the local television stations to keep us apprised of what is going on when severe weather hits. We live in a rural area and since the switch to digital television we are unable to get a good digital signal even with an antenna 15 feet above our roofline, especially in stormy weather. We can also no longer rely on our emergency portable TV because it doesn’t pick up a digital signal.

On the night of August 4, 2009, strong wings, hail and rain awakened us. We turned on the television to see what was happening. The signal came in long enough for us to see that we were under a tornado warning. Then we lost the signal and the television went blank. At least with analog TV, we could still hear what was happening even if the picture went fuzzy. I called to warn my sister and her family that bad storms were approaching. Since the switch to digital, they can no longer get a signal even with a converter box and antenna. They were able to take shelter just as the storm hit.

It was so frustrating not being able to know what was going on. The media implores us to pay attention to severe weather bulletins, but no concessions have been made for those of us who cannot get a digital signal. I wonder how many other families in rural areas have the same problem.

Luckily both my sister’s family and my family made it through the storm unscathed; however, we both worry about the next time severe weather strikes. Is there not a way to broadcast an analog signal in times of emergency for those of us who were not considered when the switch to digital was made? I appeal to you to consider those of us who depend on you to keep our families safe. Consider ways to broadcast to those of us who cannot get a digital signal.

Sincerely,

Sarah Bradford

Sawyer

Warning...rant ahead

Who's idea was it to make all television stations go digital?! It had to be some congressman that lives in a big city with his fancy satellites and cable tv. The transition from analog to digital is a joke. There was no transition here. We could get analog stations. And even if it wasn't the best signal, you could see a fuzzy picture and hear what was happening. Now that all the channels are digital, we are lucky to pick up one station. If the signal gets interrupted at all, we get to watch morphed looking people flash and freeze across the screen and listen to an irritating scratching sound. And don't think we haven't attempted to get a better signal. We bought a fancy antenna and strapped it up 20 ft above the peak of our roof. Has it helped? Nope. All it has done is add to the frustration. I wonder what will happen when the next big weather system comes through. All of us that live in small town America won't be able to watch the weather and be prepared for what is coming. I wonder how many people will be injured because they can't access the information that could save their lives. And the most frustrating thing- there is nothing we can do about it. Arg!

The cake

The best part of a birthday is making the cake. We went with a pig theme this year. Here is Olivia's cake from her party on Saturday:

And here are the pig cupcakes we made for gymnastics:

Happy 7th Birthday, Olivia!

My baby girl turns 7 today. 7 years ago Jody and I became parents and our world changed forever. Happy birthday, Olivia Bug! I hope all your wishes and dreams come true.

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 9th wedding anniversary. It's been nine years and my heart still skips a beat when I see Jody's truck coming down the driveway. I thank Heavenly Father everyday that we can be together. Here's to many, many more happy years together.

Ramblings

I paid off my student loan!! It feels great to have it gone. One less bill to worry about. Now to get the mortgage paid off...
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We got a flea market booth. It's at the same place we had one way back when. We quit doing it after Paxton was born. I am on a mission to declutter the house. Jody has stuff stacked everywhere, the kids have too many toys, and baby clothes have been piling up. This is a great way to get rid out it. The booth is 10' by 13' and rent is $100 a month. It so fun going to stock the booth so we can see what has sold. I only wish it was closer. It's in Cabot which is a 30ish minute drive from here.
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It won't stop raining.
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Now that I've weaned Sawyer and I'm feeling more like myself, I'm trying to wean off zoloft. I've done a lot of reading and apparently zoloft is near impossible to quit taking. The withdrawals are horrible and long-lasting. But I want to be able to think again. I feel like my head is in a fog all the time and my memory is horrible. I've already decreased my dose from 75 mg to 50 mg. I feel my anxiety creeping up especially in the evenings. The zoloft has never really helped my anxiety. In fact, I wonder if it has contributed to it. I'm hoping to search out some more natural ways to deal with these feelings. I just pray I can make it through the withdrawals first.
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I cleaned the kids' room today and took out most the toys and a lot of the books. I'm tired of it looking like a disaster area in there. I told them they can get some back when they take care of what they have. We'll see how that goes.
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Why did I have to discover Chain Rxn on facebook. Because I need another game to waste time on.
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Friday I have an appt with Paxton's case worker to go over his evaluations and make a plan of action. She asked if he was going to preschool in the fall and I told her no. She asked why and I told her because I homeschool Olivia and plan to homeschool him. She was amazed. I think it's funny that someone would be amazed that I want to be responsible for my child's education. I feel like that's what I signed up for when I became a parent.
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We are going to Missouri this weekend. My cousin is having a fish fry and invited the whole family to come. Sendai and I have been talking about going on a trip up there anyway to visit Poppa so this couldn't come at a better time. Jody is excited about going too. He already has all his junking plans lined out.
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My dad is in the hospital. He has a bad cold and couldn't get his asthma under control. It's times like these that I hate being so far away. I hope he gets better quickly. They are suppose to come the fish fry this weekend.
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I've been working on learning how to solve a Rubik cube. Sometimes it makes my brain hurt. I've just being using a little keychain cube that my sister has. I asked for a full size one for mother's day but someone didn't get the message.
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I have to get up early tomorrow to take FIL to the doctor. He is seeing a sleep specialist. Hopefully between all the doctors he is seeing and the tests they are running, they will figure out what is causing his migraines.

Sawyer's appt

I had another appt with the ped yesterday to discuss Sawyer's episodes. Just as the neuro suggested, he thinks that Sawyer is having a vagal nerve response. He has hard bowel movements that cause pain and witholding which causes more pain which is causing the vagal response. He checked him for fissures or other problems and everything checked out fine. The goal is to get his bms soft enough that Sawyer forgets about pooping and lets nature do it's thing. He switched him to Miralax. I'm to give it to him 2-3 times a day until he is going good, continue with it daily for 2-3 weeks and then try decreasing the dose and see how he does. I'm hoping this does the trick and lessons or eliminates the episodes.

Too much drama

Yesterday afternoon my sister and I were snoozing on the couch while the kids ran around and played. The phone rang around 3 and it was my FIL. He asked if I would come up to the house and I said sure. Then he started crying. I told Sendai to come with and we left the kids with Adriana. We got up there and he had a migraine so bad that he was whimpering and crying in pain. He was just seen at a headache clinic on Monday so we dug around to find the number and called them. FIL was in so much pain that he wanted me to just call an ambulance. I tried to hold off, but the clinic wasn't returning my call. Finally I said screw it and called for the ambulance. I thought about trying to drive him but I know he gets priority if he goes to the ER in the ambulance. While we waited for them to get there (which took forever) I called up to MIL's work to tell her to meet us at the hospital. Sendai was suppose to go get Soraya from the bus so she had to call the school and tell them the situation. She loaded up all the kids and went to meet the bus to pick her up. FIL's relatives heard the call on the scanner so his sister called to say she was calling his mom. A little while later FIL's brother showed up. After the ambulance got there and loaded him up, I followed them to hospital. When we got there, MIL and his mom, sister and cousin where already there waiting. They ended up doping FIL up with stadol, phenergan and benadryl. It knocked him out so I left to get home and feed the pigs. They had FIL discharged by 7.

My sister decided to stay the night so we didn't have to shuffle the kids around. This morning while she was waiting for the bus, she heard dogs barking and some weird noises. She decided to check on the pigs on the way back to the house. 2 large dogs jumped out of the pen as she was walking up. They had mauled all three pigs. She sent a note with Benjamin for me to hurry up to the pen and bring the phone. When I got there the pigs were laying in their house with chunks out of them and bleeding. We got in the pen and they didn't move. I had to track down FIL because he wasn't at home. He ran to the little restaurant in town to eat breakfast. He got home just as I was driving out to find him. He saw the pigs and said he would call his brother Earl to come shoot them. Earl came over and ended up only having to shoot 2 of them because one was up and eating. They sprayed it down with antibiotic and we hope she makes it.

Meanwhile Jody is out of town. Luckily he is coming back tonight. There has been way too much drama since he's been gone. Thankgoodness my sister is here or I would be a mess. I need a vacation.

Look who's walking!

Finally, at seventeen and a half months, Sawyer has decided he can walk. He has to be the cutest little walker ever. He sticks his belly out and walks all stiff-legged. He looks like a little sumo baby. I'm so excited that's he' has *finally* met this milestone. And a little nervous. .Because after they learn to walk, they learn to run.

Tea Party!

The kids and I decided to participate in the TEA Parties going on all over the US to protest the misuse of our tax dollars. We had a great time making posters and t-shirts. I think it was a great opportunity for the kids to see the citizens unite in a cause they believe in.

Hang in there

This picture just cracks me up. Sendai's gang and my gang went to explore the creek that runs across our land. The kids had a great time splashing through the water and discovering new things. Sendai decided to help Benjamin hang from a branch over the tree. It was fun at first, but then he started to panic. Sendai is just outside the photo frame. She caught him before he fell in.

Life

It all seems to be going by too fast. I have a picture of me during my first year of college on the kid’s dresser. I glanced at in the other day while putting the kids clothes away, and I was struck by how much younger I looked then. Those memories don’t seem so long ago. Can it really be 11 years? I watched a video of a young family just beginning- a tiny baby snuggled in a pink blanket and a new mother and father with big grins on their faces, not really aware of how much their world was about to change. I’ve been there. I did that. That innocence is gone. My children are growing up entirely too fast. Jody wants to be done with having babies. The thought of that phase of my life being over makes me want to curl up into a ball and cry. Having babies is what I’ve always dreamed of. What happens when it’s over? Before I know it, the kids will all be grown and I’ll wonder where that time went. It seems like it was just a few years ago when I left for college and found my place in world. Is there any way to slow the passage of time down? A way to enjoy every moment I have now before it slips away?

Sick kid

Sawyer just got off a round of antibiotics and steroids on Monday. Wednesday night he started running a fever and ran one off and on until Friday night. The last two nights he has not slept well at all. Which means I didn't sleep well. Which means I'm tired and grumpy. Today I noticed Sawyer has a rash all over. So what is it? My first guess is roseola. But I don't think that would explain why he isn't sleeping well. Looks like we may be in for another trip to the ped tomorrow. For the third week in a row. Ugh.

Paxton

Random thoughts

A traded a sister from church dried beans for 50 pounds of rolled oats. I have nowhere to keep a 50 pound bag of oats so I vacuum sealed them into 15 gallon size bags. Well I also don't have anywhere to keep 15 gallon size bags of oats. I have managed to stash 11 of them around the kitchen and pantry. I have 4 left on the counter I need to figure out what to do with. I'm hoping MIL will take a few. Food storage is a great idea until you realize how much room it requires.
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I never realized how quiet three kids are until my sister and her three kids moved out of our house. It's been a major change of pespective.
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I watched a tummy tuck and boob job on Dr. 90210. I think I will stick with my baby pooch and saggy boobs.
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I am into bargain shopping full force again. Jody helped support my addiction by driving me to 5 different Walgreens all over central AR. Now that the weather is nice, I can turn my stock. I made $150 the last time I set up at the market. And I get to shop. It's the best of both worlds.
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I've been reading a lot of books lately. Maybe that means my depression is lifting. I've read The Nannie Diaries, 90 Minutes in Heaven, First Comes Love, the first 3 books of the Twilight series, and the first Harry Potter (I an rereading the entire series). My parents called tonight and they are sending more books down with my brother when he comes to visit this week. Now I have to balance reading with housework.
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I still haven't adjusted to the time change. I stay up too late and want to sleep in. Too bad the kids won't let me.
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I took Sawyer to the ped on Friday. He had an awful cough and started sounding rattley. He is on 4 days of antibiotics and steroids. I asked the ped about his "not seizures", and he said not to worry about them. I said but he cries after them like it hurts and the ped said he's fine. I've always been happy with this ped up until now, but to go from he might be having seizures to don't worry about, that bugs. We have my sister's ex-husband who is a doctor researching it now. Hopefully we get some answers.
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My sister and I have started playing Scrabble when we have free time. So far I am ahead 2-1. But who's counting? lol

Multi-tasking

Meet #4

Olivia had her fourth and final gymnastics meet of the competition season. She's been sick so she wasn't able to practice much the last two weeks. Regardless, she did great! She got 1st place on beam and 3rd place on floor, vault, and uneven bars. She got 3rd place all around. I'm so proud of her. She is such a good little gymnast.


Warming up:



Performing her beam routine:

Proudly wearing her medals:

Bargain Shopping

I took a couple months off from doing major bargain shopping. I got behind on cutting coupons and the thought of getting caught up was overwhelming. I also had a lot going on with my sister and her kids living here. It's been too cold to set up at the market and turn items so I didn't have a lot of motivation. I've started back at it this week and I had forgotten how much fun it is. Saturday is suppose to be gorgeous and I bet the market will be crawling with people. I'm working on getting my inventory up so I can *hopefully* make lots of money.

Total after coupons and RR: $26

Received $12 RR

Total OOP: $14

Total savings: $86

Little Monkey

The kids were in their room playing today when they started yelling for me. I ran in the room to see what was going on. Sawyer had managed to climb to the top of the bunkbed ladder. I got him down and took him to the livingroom. Not two minutes later, he was back to climbing. The kid still isn't walking but he can climb like a monkey. Soon nothing in the house will be safe.

A new addition

I am a sucker for black labs. They are smart and great with kids. Someone dropped two off at the market, and the man set up next to us was trying to find them a home. Sendai wants a dog when she moves to the farm so she started tossing around the idea of getting one. Once I saw them, I wanted one too. Darn cute puppies. Of course all the kids really wanted them. We started to work on Jody. At some point he said the dog could be my Valentine's Day present since he didn't get me one. He's such the romantic. The rest is history. The dog on the left is mine. Her name is Jasmine. Sendai's dog is on the right and her name is Bella (pronounced bay-ya). So far they've figured out how to get out of their pen, made their way to the IL's house, and dug up part of my flower bed. But they sure are cute!

So what is it?

We had the follow up with the neurologist today. After viewing the 6 or so episodes we got on video, he doesn't believe it is seizures. He's seen thousands of seizures and these just don't fit the mold. He said to call if they get worse but otherwise he's healthy. I'm relieved it's not epilepsy, but what is it then? I'm going to go back to his pediatrician and talk to him. There is a connection between the episodes and Sawyer's bowel movements. He doesn't always have a bm with the episodes, but I think he always has an episode with a bm. I wonder if maybe he has a fissure or something that is making it painful for him to poop and maybe that is causing the problems. I don't know. All I know is something isn't right.

The Country Life

Diagnosis unknown

It's been a long day. We didn't sleep well. Sawyer has a horrible cough and is wheezing and was restless. We left at 7:30. The clinic is 2 long hours away. Sawyer had the EEG. He was up early and we didn't let him sleep on the way there because they wanted him asleep for the study. He cried the saddest cries not because he was in pain, but because they were touching him and gluing electrodes all over his head. I was glad my sister was with me because Jody would not have been able to handle it. They did the test, we left and got a bite to eat and we headed back to meet with the neuro. The EEG was normal but by the descriptions of what is happening and the video of an episode I have my cellphone, he suspects it is complex partial seizures. He wants us to videotape some more episodes so he has "more ammunition" to work with. We are to go back next Wednesday with the videos and decide on a course of action. He gave us a prescription for a medicine in case he has a bad seizure that he doesn't come out of. If it is seizures, they will put him on topomax for at least two years. While we were there another ped heard Sawyer's cough and said it was worse than any of the patients she had seen today. I commented that he was wheezing and he's been on antibiotics for a week. She said he needed steroids so they wrote a script for that too. The two hour drive home seemed like it took forever. Sawyer slept the whole way. Poor thing. Now that we are home, I realize that he's running a low grade fever too. He looks sick. If he's not doing better in the morning, I'll probably make an appt with out reg ped. I can't imagine him being so sick after having a shot of roseffin (sp?) and being on oral antibiotics. I feel so bad for him being so sick after going through everything else today. Anyway, I'm exhausted. I think I'm going to give Sawyer a bath and try to get some of the goop out of his hair and then we will curl up in bed. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. They've really meant a lot to me.

A new place to call home

My sister and her kids have been living with us since Christmas. They are planning to relocate here. Her temporary housing finally made it down from Iowa last week- a 54 year old trailer. The interior is in great shape. The exterior is a lovely pink and silver. I love it because it looks so hillbilly.

TIMBER!

You have to be creative to find ways for entertainment when you live in the middle of nowhere. Our house is down in the woods, and if there are more than two vehicles here, parking is a nightmare. My sister and I decided to take down a tree so we can have a circle drive. All it took was a sawsall, a hatchet, a rope and a van. We managed to get the tree down without injuring anyone or anything. We rock!

Meet #2

Olivia had her second meet today. She only had two practices since her last meet and I thought she did great. Her scores were:

Floor: 8.67 1st Place

Vault: 8.25 7th Place

Bars: 6.80 3rd Place

Beam: 8.05 4th Place

And she got 3rd Place for All-Around. Great job, Olivia!

I took Sawyer to the ped today because he's been having some worrisome episodes. He starts making a weird nose with his lips, his head pulls back and his legs tense and curl up. He usually has about a dime size worth of poo after it's over. I originally thought it was because he was constipated and it hurt to poo. But the episodes are getting worse and his bms aren't hard anymore. It occured to me that he might be pooing because of the episode and not vice versa. I counted yesterday and he had at least 10 episodes. My mommy radar says something is not right.

The ped confirmed my suspicions and thinks it may be seizures. He is referring us to a pediatric neurologist. He wants Sawyer to have an EEG and we will go from there. They are suppose to call me with an appt date on Monday.

I'm trying not to freak out. It is what it is and we will deal with it. One of the scariest thing for me is the meds used to treat seizures. I've seen the side-effects they had on Anna. They are some strong stuff. Part of me wants to hold Sawyer and cry. Watching him have these episodes is heartbreaking. I know it has to be scary for him, and he is too young to understand what is happening. I am going to get him a priesthood blessing tomorrow. Hopefully there are some words of comfort in it. If you would pray for my sweet little baby boy I would greatly appreciate it.